Day 3…

I would have had 50 days sober had I not chose to blow it.  But now I’m back to day three.  So being inspired by the pop star Kesha…. “I got my sober hot pants on and up, and no you don’t wanna mess with us, got jesus on my necklace!”  Lol…anyhow sober blog read pretty much all day.  Can you read too much…idk but I just can’t worry about that addiction:-)!  I pretty much am tired of thinking of drinking…thanks Belle!  I want to think about exercise, healthy foods, cleaning, being a good/fun interactive mom.  I don’t want to think of my vacation on the 17th or that I signed up for the 100 day challenge in which not one drop may be consumed.  I would love it, God, if you could erase all thoughts of alcohol.  Like it doesn’t even exist.  Wouldn’t that be freaking ass dandy?  Ugh why me? Why do I have to have this crap filled relationship with stupid booze?  Well if everything happens for a reason, what is the damn reason?

Enough whining, I’m just tired from working three 12 hour shifts.  One more to go…so not today….today I will go home, snuggle the babies, watch some tv and go to sleep!

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6 thoughts on “Day 3…

  1. I have generalised anxiety and when I start to think negatively, it can really take over. The trick is to replace the unwanted thought with a new thought. So the thought of alcohol comes into your head, replace it with a different thought, like imagine yourself running or something. It takes some time but it might work to train your brain a little bit.

  2. You have good positive intentions, and you know where you want to be. Don’t beat yourself up, but celebrate that you got right back up to start again- THAT takes STRENGTH and determination!

  3. You’ve got this! I have learned that keeping busy helps. I have a full-time job, and I try to hit a meeting on my way home. Meetings are the way I have begun to build my social circle since relocating to a new area. Find people that you relate to, and more importantly, people you actually “like”! You may find that you are laughing a lot more. Surrounding yourself with sober people is critically in your early days! Good luck… I’ll be rooting for you 🙂
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    • Yes Paige..keeping busy does help a lot. Im lucky that I have little ones that never let me have a free moment and always make messes for me to clean. I have wonderful supportive friends that all are happy that I have chosen to stop. I was actually the biggest drinker of the lot of them…sad but true. This blogosphere is my meeting spot…I’m here two to ten times a day…lol. I have been laughing more, happy more…I just need to get over that I am telling myself no. I never tell myself no to whatever I want. It’s not that I necessarily want or need it physically but it’s mental. Concerning wine I have a spoiled brat mentality. Yes it is definitely a thinking problem more than drinking problem..as some bloggers state. Keep cheering me on…thank you!

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