My journey of health never ends. I constantly come back to the mindset that I need to follow a vegan/vegetarian life style. Alcohol consumption does not lend to this lifestyle….I am no where near where I was with the drinking. I used alcohol to mask issues that I did not want to deal with. I even thought myself an alcoholic for a awhile because then I could blame that instead of the real reasons for me imbibing way too much. I do like to enjoy my wine…with boundaries. I never buy more than one bottle. I do not drink it all in one sitting. I do not drink everyday. I do not drink when I am sad or angry….I eat chocolate and carbs! I have being dealing with my issues with alot of talking and getting deeper in my faith and closer to God. He does not want me to be a drunk fool. My children are 5 and 7 and are very wise. I cannot let them lose their faith in me. There are many things that I have gotten into now that I would love to share here. I know it has been awhile but I am in a much happier place. Sure I have my struggles but they seem doable now. Just a quick line before I get my day going…kids to school, then dmv (ugh), then shopping and lunch with a friend.
So my life crazy busy! I have not found time to sit and write. I am trying to keep my shit together, be a mom, exercise, eat healthy, keep the house clean….like a hamster on a wheel. I hope you are all doing amazing! I just celebrated my 37th bday. I am glad to be another year older as it means I am not dead yet! I survived a visit from my bio dad, eek that was annoying nerve wracking but it’s over. I need to be doing like five things right now but I was like I must check in!!! I am anxiously awaiting my new bday present, which is a new phone. So hopefully I can blog more on it..since my kids have taken over my laptop. I am still trying to not be a drunk asshole. So that’s awesome…I really think about it every day and know I always have to remember it’s just two bottles away to being a wretched embarassing beast. I have been trying to keep up with my gratitude group, I really like it. It is so wonderful to bring gratefulness to heart daily. Please drop me a line and let me know how my sober family is doing!! Oh I hear the postman dropping a package off…whooooo hoooooo!!!!
I am still here. Still trying to not be a drunk a$$hole. Busy with work, school, mini vacays, mom stuff etc. Trying to fit fitness into all off this. Omg don’t get me started on this Oxy-Powder cleanse I have been doing for the last six days!!!! I have to find time to fit “me time” in to my schedule. Kindergarten has homework??? Wtf??? Anyhow just a quickie, hope to write soon when I get a moment to sit and think!!! XOXOXOXO…..MOM-E.
Thank you to my fellow blogger Beer Drinker Only (http://chrisdipetro.wordpress.com/) for nominating me for a Liebster Award! Here are the rules…
Firstly, the rules:
Answer 11 random facts about yourself;
Answer 11 questions from the person that nominated you; and
Nominate new blogs (with under 300 followers) and make 11 questions for them to answer.
Eleven Random Facts About Me:
- I gag very easy, like could throw up. My BFF thinks it’s hilarious and tries frequently to get me to upchuck and she succeeds.
- I can burp the alphabet, yup super proud of that.
- I loooooooove casseroles, if I can try to make a casserole out of it I will try.
- I must eat potatoes in various different forms daily.
- I love my children but I am not a kid person.
- My favorite thing is when it’s stormy outside and I am cuddled inside with fire and my family.
- I love weekend getaways, I’m down to go anywhere. You don’t have to entertain me, just feed me good food.
- I am learning that happiness is a choice, It doesn’t just happen to you.
- Alexander Skarsgard is my imaginary boyfriend.
- I always have to try new things. Like I try it then if I like it, I get on my soap box and get everyone else to try it too.
- My last name is google, because I know a lot of random things.
Answers to Beer Drinker Only’s questions:
If you could change one thing about your country what would it be? Oh jeez only one. . . . close the borders for real (we are now seeing an influx of EV-D68 and I know it coincides with all the immigrants coming illegally. Proper immigration avenues are there for a reason )…quit giving billions in foreign aid focus our money on our countries residents and our mounting national debt…get obama out!!!
What is the thing that makes you unbelievably proud of your country? The freedom of choice that we have. People are persecuted in this day and age for religious beliefs and it is absurd to me.
Do you remember your dreams? If so, what was the last one to affect you? Omg, this is too funny I dreamed my new wood floors that were put in were made of foam and wood looking stickers. I was so mad and felt I was dupped.
If the blogging genie came to you and offered you three blogging related wishes what would they be? 1. To help someone feel better, or not alone, or to inspire. 2. To become outrageously talented writer because of and eventually write a book. 3. To have a lot of followers, DUH!!!
If you had an opportunity to explore an undiscovered area in outer space or on earth which would you choose? Earth, because I always want to have available oxygen!!!
Why did you start blogging? To help process why I am who I am, and why I do the things I do.
What is your one, ultimate, life-long dream? To see my children grow up happy, healthy, prosperous and find loving mates. Also for my hubby and I to be happy, healthy, and prosperous as well.
If you had to give up your other achievements to accomplish that dream, would you? I would give it all up to have my family and myself be truly happy.
Do you believe in ghosts? Or aliens? I believe in spirits. Had the wonderful opportunity to have lived next to an old cemetery as a child. Yup, got lots exposure to that realm.
What religion intrigues you the most? ( It doesn’t have to be your own religion or you don’t have to be religious. Just one that interests you – good or bad) I like the principles of Buddhists but I am 100% christian.
My nominations for the Liebster Award:
Mallards for us… http://mallards4us.wordpress.com/
How do you do it Lynn… http://howdoyoudoitlynn.wordpress.com/
My journey to getting better… http://jayjaysmiles.wordpress.com/
The sober garden… http://thesobergarden.wordpress.com/
No more wine… http://nomorewine.wordpress.com/
Addicted to sobriety… http://addictedtosobriety1.wordpress.com/
I know that in order to achieve all the thing I want out of life, that it will take hard work. 1) Quitting booze…yeah we all know how hard that is. 2) Being a fabulous mother with tons of patience and minimal cussing…omg wow prolly harder than not drinking. 3) Getting in shape…you mean I must work out and eat like only 1200 calories a day? 4) Getting my finances under control and eeek following a budget….what I don’t get everything I want because I choose to be sober, like daily prizes and shit (oops I cussed)? 5) A clean, clutter free home that is organized….lololololol now that is just a sheer pipe dream.
I know that this last week I tried something new and wholly heck, its freaking dang amazeballs (see I wanted to cuss a little there but I held back)! My bff is a beach body coach and is always yelling at my head to quit being lazy and workout and eat right… blah blah blah. Ok, so I ordered some Shakeology mix and some workout videos to shut her up. I have been drinking these shakes for the last six days with a scoop of Green Vibrance (a separate super food mix), also hubs is drinking them too. OMG my energy is up and I have been working out and cleaning and organizing like a mad woman. I ordered a second bag of chocolate flavor for the little ones because to be honest they don’t eat their fruits and veggies. I am floored by the difference I feel with these shakes, and they taste good. But most of all my mood is like 100% better. I expected when I stopped saucing it up so much I would just magically feel like a million buck, nope. I tried to eat well but I know I fell well below the mark. I realized my body was lacking in nutrition soooo much that it was affecting my mood so poorly and my motivation sucked. A well nourished body feels so very different. I get excited to make my shakes in the morning. It is weird. I used to make fruit and veg smoothies but I could nowhere come near the amount of super foods in my new shake blend. I watched the commercials for this product before and I was like they are so full of malarkey. But no way, a few of us at work are drinking these and I am not the only one who thinks they are like a healthy crack alternative. I seriously must have these shakes everyday for the rest of my life. In fact it’s five pm, I had my shake at 7 am and I am going to work out now. I WOULD HAVE NEVER EVER SAID THAT TWO WEEKS AGO! I would have laughed at your face and said what it’s not 5 o’clock, it’s Sit o’clock.
Hey all!! I just sitting at work thinking I need to shout out to my blogging family. I have been swooped into a fitness challenge by my bff. So I have videos coming and shakes, all this stuff I probably didn’t need. I know it is actually simple to get fit, eat less than you burn a day and poof you loose weight. But it is more fun with friends, just like it is easier to quit drinking with support, so here I am. I also found these crazy Kangoo Jumps and am super excited to try them. They are actually a super efficient way to exercise, and reduce stress and injury to the body by 80%. So instead of spending money on booze I am spending it on health related stuff. Not to shabby of a trade right? So wish me luck and not to break a leg lol!!! Check this out looks sooooooooo fun!
Things I love about being sober…1) My marriage is 100 times better. 2) I am a way more patient mother. 3) I am still fun and funny without alcohol, my personality only gets better sober. 4) My friends are still my friends, drinking or not they still like hanging out with me. 5) Mornings don’t suck anymore. 6) My stomach looks waaaaaaay better. 7) I am a hell of a lot more productive sans booze. 8) I don’t feel guilt or shame on a regular basis, if at all. 9) I am happier, even with everyday stresses. 10) I don’t feel like I am killing myself slowly. 11) I feel in complete control, alcohol scares the shit out of me because when I would blackout most times I would not go to sleep. I would be up doing or saying crazy shit. On Christmas night two years ago we had some friends over, we drank of course. I don’t remember the last part of the evening, but I was told the next day I was laying down in bed with a popcorn factory tub shoveling it in to my mouth. I was so drunk. My friend tried to take it away from me so I wouldn’t choke on it and I straight up growled at her, like tigress protecting her kill. Needless to say I woke up a midst a sea of crumbled popcorn kernels. Nice! 12) I remember random shit like Rain Man, my brain freaking works now it’s great. 13) I feel hope while not drinking regularly vs. the doomsday mentality I used to have about every thing. 14) I had some crazy stuff happen at work and I was able to handle it calmly and smartly, instead of freaking out because I felt like a steaming pile with a foggy head. 15) This blogging community and the support I have found here. I don’t feel like a big fat loser (or alone in this), because I can’t handle my booze. I feel empowered by everyone’s honesty. And if I slip up I am not judged, just encouraged to move forward.
I think there is no one right way to get and stay sober. AA works for a lot of people. Others find the help they need online and can do it on the down low. I am honest in my real life I tell people “Hey I am a sucky drunk when I drink too much. It was getting to be too much drinking, too often lately and I had to stop before I or my kids got hurt.” I don’t know if it will be forever, I’m pretty sure it has to be nothing for some years. I hate to say that I can’t a few years from now have a glass of wine from time to time. And I mean one glass. But I know in this moment of my life it has to be nothing. I know deep down honestly in my heart I need to not let a drop pass my lips. I fear the not knowing when to stop. I am afraid of my drunk self and the destruction she causes and the people she hurts. Going to meetings isn’t my thing, but I do like the idea of calling or texting someone when that crazy urge to drink starts up and won’t go away. I don’t know who it would be for me. But the concept is great and I think I would like it.